Posts Tagged ‘slavery’
boy was serving LadyHotchKiss today and was sent on an errand to pick up four items. it took boy over an hour and a visit to 4 different stores to find the four items HotchKiss needed. Now, if boy had been shopping for himself and had to pick up four every-day items and had to visit four different stores to find them, boy would have been frustrated to say the least. boy would likely have been angry and fuming, but at the very least extremely frustrated. however, such was not the case today. it didn’t seem to matter to boy. the only thing that mattered was that HotchKiss needed four items and that She had sent boy to get the four items. it didn’t matter what boy had to do to get the four items so long as boy returned with them. and having done so, instead of frustration, boy felt a sense of accomplishment. boy had done what HotchKiss needed done. boy had served his purpose and boy was able to take pride in that instead of frustration. what a revelation!
This is another of those areas where it is more of a continuum than an either/or definition. Of course there are those who are strictly service slaves as well as those who are strictly sensual slaves, but the vast majority are a combination of the two. boy identifies primarily as a service slave and derives great pleasure from performing chores that his Owner finds onerous, boring, time-consuming, or otherwise unwilling to perform Herself. However, that does NOT mean that boy does not appreciate and enjoy the occasional sensual session, whether it’s given as a reward for good service, simply because She wants to,or because She perceives that boy has a need for one. And boy believes it is that way for most slaves. Most sensual slaves have chores, even if it just a command to get the owner a glass of water after a session, there is service involved. boy falls more towards the service side of the continuum.
i am evolving as a slave. Those who have read my posts will note an immediate difference. i am no longer using the 3rd person “boy” when speaking of myself. The rationale and justification for that usage is now gone. i asked LadyHotchKiss near the beginning of O/our relationship what i should call myself and She asked me what i wished to be called. At the time, i decided i wanted to use the 3rd person “boy” as a tool to help me get into the proper headspace when serving, or for that matter, even thinking of Her. It has become no longer necessary. i am in the proper headspace nearly all the time now, and in fact, have to consciously monitor myself when in vanilla situations so that i don’t appear slave-like at inappropriate moments. There are other changes as well.
This week, boy had a most memorable session with LadyH. If not the best session ever, certainly the second best ever. boy went completely and totally into subspace and though boy wanted more, boy is not sure he could have truly taken more. there was so much! It started with boy being bound to the table for the first time, and of course boy loves bondage so all by itself that was a thrill. But HotchKiss then proceeded to use Her new candles on boy…five different colors with, of course, five different temps. She then combined that with ice cubes, completely encasing at least one ice cube in wax on boy’s belly. The juxtaposition of heat and cold was truly sublime. As if all that wasn’t enough, HotchKiss then blindfolded boy and brought out a knife!!! Prior to meeting HotchKiss, edge play had always been a hard limit for boy. But through Her tutelage boy is learning that boy enjoys edge play. She also used the pinwheel on boy and with more pressure than ever before, leaving visible and bloody tracks all over boy’s torso and thighs. The knife, however, was what sent boy over the edge. As She was scraping wax off with the knife, boy felt the blade passing over his skin…in some very sensitive places. At one point, boy would have sworn that She was shaving boy’s chest completely. Towards the end, boy started shaking. HotchKiss called it shivering, but it wasn’t shivering. boy was vibrating and could not control it. Wherever She touched boy, boy vibrated, and it extended throughout boy’s body. All in all, it was a totally incredible experience. HotchKiss’s talent as a Domme is increasing exponentially and boy cannot wait to see how She evolves. boy has said it before and will repeat it now. boy is utterly and totally in thrall to Lady HotchKiss.
